Permission to be Miffed at Gumby, Ma'am!

My girlfriend and I just got done with a back and forth of HeyTell (it's an app on the iPhone) tag about how her PCS wasn't being executed quiet the way she had in her plan. It threw her for a loop and she just needed someone to vent to that would understand. Oh how I understand.

I'm a planner. This comes as no surprise to many of you who have known and followed our blog for years. But I don't know if you know how much of a planner I really am.

I "suffer" from ADD. I say that in quotes because I don't believe it is much of a suffer for anyone but those who think or are bothered by the fact that I talk too fast, can't stay on topic, and have fifteen projects going on at one time. For me, that's not suffering - that productivity!

I am who I am and when I try to "fix" what they tell me ails me it leads to a very unhappy me. I'll take the happy, productive, fast paced, crazy hair on fire girl who gets things done. But, alas, someone or some thing has to keep me organized or you'll hear me saying "oh look, a squirrel!" and then I'm off again. I honestly believe - and so do the experts - that my incessant need for organization is where my planner personality was derived. In other words, it's my self-learned coping mechanism.

I live by my outlook calendar. If I don't write it down, or it isn't in an email then you can forget it. Yes, I often email myself things throughout the day as random thoughts cross my mind. I never say I'll do something I don't write down immediately. Because if I say I'll do it. I'll do it.

Likewise, I am not one to be very understanding when you say that you'll do it and then you don't.  You won't find me smiling when an appointment gets cancelled. I'm not the one you find doing "spur of the moment" things - unless I've planned to not have a plan! :)

So I told her I understood. It's all relative, you know. We can wish for the freedom that spontaneity provides. We can "Semper Gumby!" through this military life - with a plan to plan for nothing but inevitable change. But for us planners, we need permission for it to be ok if we get miffed when it doesn't go our way.